Adam breastfed on the plane.

Wasted Milk

In the beginning of Adam's life I pumped when my breasts were too full, I also pumped to keep up my supply if I felt he wasn't nursing enough. I could have FedEx'ed my milk to my new home or I could have tried to bring it with me on the plane. What I should have done was gotten blood tests and what not so I could donate it. I ended up throwing it out a few days before I moved. What a waste, but when it comes time for Adam to eat cereal I will just pump some milk then.

Nursing in public again.

Before we moved we went to the Exploration Place in Wichita, Kansas one last time. They have a castle there and I nursed Adam in the little medieval kitchen. A little boy came in and offered me some plastic food to feed the baby, but I told him the baby only drinks milk right now.

Nursing in our empty home in Kansas before moving.

My Babies...

Adam is my fourth baby and my last, but he has something in common with all three of his sisters, he likes to be held. I know all babies like to be held, at least all the babies I've known, and working in daycare in high school and college that is a lot of babies.

I like to hold them. I think for mammals being close to their young is good for the parent, makes the parent attached to the baby and want to keep them safe and happy and well-cared for. I don't think it does the young any harm either. This is why I sleep with my baby and hold him almost all the time, good for him, good for me, it's a win-win situation.

I am thankful to my husband for working so hard so I can stay home and thankful to my husband and children for the sacrifices they make so I can stay home when my children are small. We wouldn't have a lot more money if I worked, but it would be more. Staying home is worth it though in my opinion, there is nothing money can buy that I would enjoy more than the time I spend with my kids before they start school.

Nursing in public.

This past week I nursed Adam at the mall in the play area twice. I didn't particularly notice anyone staring or looking away either, so that was good. Some people are uncomfortable about seeing a woman nursing her baby, I don't think that it's so much they don't want to see the boob, because really, what's the problem with boobs? I think they just feel uncomfortable about seeing a baby sucking on the nipple, but really, what do they think nipples were invented for?

He's almost as long as the nursing pillow.

Starting to use his hands on purpose and hold on while he's nursing

Nursing Adam while playing a game with my daughters.

9 weeks old!

Almost asleep!

Getting sleepy

I like it when Adam is sleepy and he starts to nurse and his eyes half close or his eyes sort of roll back, he looks so blissful.

Happy. Content. Comfy.

Adam's favorite place to sleep.

Adam has a heart defect, one of the signs of his heart getting worse that I am supposed to watch out for his sleepiness and eating trouble and not gaining enough weight, which goes with not eating well I suppose.

It has been my experience over the years, while breastfeeding my other three children and feeding bottles to babies I watched in daycare or babysat, that babies fall asleep while eating. Warm food, the comfort of sucking, the warm arms and the sound of a beating hard. What could be more comforting?