4 years 2 months, 2 years 1 month, 2 years 7 months, 5 years 2 months so far...

an odd thing i've noticed now that my son has nearly weaned is that my boobs are so cold! they have gone from being the warmest part of my body to being just so cold! my daughters laugh at me when i say my boobs are freezing. adam will probably be all the way weaned in a few weeks. six months after he is weaned i get to have my first mammogram, wee! exciting! why? because i am an older mom i suppose. 41. after all these years of breastfeeding i don't know how i feel about the fact that my last child is only nursing once a day before bed and only on one side. the first feeling that comes to mind is sad. i'm kind of sad. before i was pregnant with my first child i planned to breastfeed. i had boobs, they were d size boobs, i figured i may as well use them. i had a few role models growing up who breastfed their babies. my husband was supportive. i gave birth the first time in a great hospital with a lot of support. but this story isn't about each of my babies and their breastfeeding stories. this story is about weaning, it's about the end of an era (thanks friends tv show) it's about a part of my life that has defined me ending. adam will be my second child to wean himself. i am thankful i have let him wean himself. he's a twiddler so you know, i am relieved i was able to let him wean himself. like any last time, i hope i notice his last time nursing to sleep. my last time nursing my child to sleep. last of all, thank you my boobs, you have done a very good job. i'm proud of you.